The world is a cruel, cruel place. I've had a crush on this one guy at my work for several weeks now and everything was going great until now. I mean sure he never asked me out  or anything,and I personally would probably never admit that I have a crush on him. But I thought that we could at least become good friends....I mean he seemed to like me too as a friend...or maybe something more :/. I don't know, but we flirt a lot. He even joked one time about whether or not I was jealous when I asked how his "boyfriend" was doing. It's a complicated story, but he is straight. There is just this weird friendship between him and this 40 year old man that everyone always jokes about. Anyways, yesterday night I found out that all this time, when he was asking me to hangout, it was just so he could set me up with this other guy at work that has a crush on me. *sniff*

I am so confused right now. I am thinking about giving the guy that ACTUALLY likes me a chance since he just finish confessing that he likes me. But my heart still really likes the guy that tried to set me up. I just don't get my crush. Sure, he acts like a jerk, but I never thought that he actually was one. And how about all those times he went out of his way to help me. That was all for nothing too.  All this time, he was just trying to help his friend get with me. I feel like so.bbing. Love really, really, really suxs. T_T What am I going to do now?

Hi everyone!

I haven't posted anything about my personal life in a while *mainly because I've been really busy. ^^U heh!* However, part of keeping a journal is writing down interesting stuff about your life, right??? Well, that's pretty much not going to happen this post, sorry! lol xD

But to make up for my lack of personal posts, I did find some time to take mon amie Firejem325x's "What kind of Cookie are you?" test. It turns out I'm a Zutara cookie. How bizzare is that? lol ^^

You Are a Black and White Cookie

You're often conflicted in life, and you feel pulled in two opposite directions. When you're good, you're sweet as sugar. And when you're bad, you're wicked!

Okay, now before all the H/Hr fans start throwing rotten tomatoes and extremely sharp objects at me *cowers in fear*, let me just say that the title is deceiving. What I mean from the word "curse" is that from the beginning I was a neutral shipper when it came to Harry Potter. I've never read the book so I usually just went by what people said about the book online.

Wow! Not even a month and I'm switching layouts already!  But it's okay, I love being eccentric. It keeps my creative juices flowing. lol Anyways, not much to say except that I'm really excited by the Nick commercial, though as always I don't want to let my hopes up only to have them crushed into the ground. I don't think my zutara heart could take another major disappointment like "The Cave of Two Lovers". So I'll keep my cynical face on for now while squeeing on the inside. ^^U Heh!

Although, for Christmas I wish all the Zutaras could write to Nick or Santa (Because he's Saint Nick lol) and ask them  to make zutara happen. I don't care if it's only as an implied ending but oh how I wish zutara could become canon for real. 


That is my one and only Christmas wish this year. =)

Bonjour mes amies,

I should really be writing my term papers write now but I'm having a hard time getting started. It's like I'm sitting there trying to concentrate but then I find myself looming back towards the computer to look at the latest zutara updates. ^^U I guess I am really excited about the Season finale even if I'm trying desperately not to raise my hopes up too high. But the enthusiasm does seem really contagious right now, especially over at the zutara forum. "Companionship" is my new favorite word. lol However, this temporary euphoria is seriously distracting me from writing my psych paper on depression which is so far from joyful. :( 

And then there is my english paper which I don't even want to get into right now. *faints*

So I got my French test back yesterday. As predicted, I didn't do so well. I got an 83%. That's not that bad but it's stupid how much I messed up on the minor things such as not putting l'après-midi or ça vous plaît instead of ça vous plaît comme travail. Shouldn't I at least get half credit or something? And then I got the "what time does class start?" question wrong because mon professeur added the 10 minute leeway we have to get to class rather than the supposed starting time. Now that really sucks! *deep sigh* Oh well, I guess there is always the next test, followed by the final. Man I really need to work on my pronounciation. The teacher kept correcting every word that came out of my mouth. Hmmm...And let me tell you that was far from fun unfortunately. :(

Maybe I should start writing everything in français from now on? lol Now that would be a scream. ^^

Woot! ^^ I finally figured out how to use livejournal. Yay! *awkward silence* ^^U And as a result I was finally able to change my layout to something that I actually think represents me. *exasperated sigh* But let me tell you, it wasn't easy since I had no clue how to modify all those html colors and fonts and what not. My head is still dizzy thinking about it. @_@ However, I'm happy with how it turned out. And the background texture matched the other boxes pretty well. But it's ridiculous how much time I put into rearranging and matching the colors. I could have written a whole book by now. Eeerrr..Nonetheless, I'm just glad that the whole process ended well. I think my layout came out pretty well for what it's worth. ^^

Zuko: PPffft...Says you. *Is crushed by random rock* @_@

KG: Wow! Now what are the chances of that. ^^U

Okay, so I just had my French test today and let me tell you something. I am no happy camper. My teacher went sooo fast that I couldn't even finish all of my senteces before she skiped on to the next ones. I mean seriously, hasn't she ever heard of "multiple choice"?. Don't get me wrong, I don't think I failed or anything but I don't think I got an "A" either. :(

This sucks since this is the only class that I actually take time out "everyday" to study for. U_U Yet, I know I'm probably going to get a "C" or something. *sniff* And no, I'm not a geek, I'm just disappointed in myself since I did study for that test. *goes off to feel sorry for herself*

*awkward silence*

Zuko: -_- Don't mind her, she's just insane. *Is hit by random rock* @_@

Okay, I've been thinking lately about doing some more zutara art. *Gasp* Yes, I'm pretty much off my Halloween high now. ^^U However, the problem is I can't draw to save my life, as sad as that may be. -_-

So I was thinking of maybe doing a little manip story instead. Hehe...

It's going to be called the "The Last Question", but I won't say anymore until then. ^_~

It's kind of funny, but lately I've been rather bothered by this whole "Zutara canon or no canon" thing. In a way, I would really really really like to see zutara become canon and yet, on the other hand I don't want to see any corny blushing or hugs. Just imagining Katara interact the way she does with Aang to Zuko sends a chill shudder down my spine.

Okay, I am on the most out of this world, post Halloween high ever!!!!  All the candy has gone to my head and I feel like jumping rope about 500 million times right now. No, seriously it's that bad. In a way, this kind of reinforces why I don't eat candy. *Gasps from the audience* Yeah, I don't but oh the candy is sooo good right now. And I guess because my body is so not use to candy that I'm getting high off six or seven pieces of them.  -_-U Very sad, but true unfortunately.

^^U 

Anyways, I did make some manips before I went completely insane and before Halloween, of course. So I wanted to share them with everyone, even-though I had inititally hoped to presented them with some icons as well. However, I'm not sure when I'll be calm or sane enough to make icons & manips again so I thought why not. Although, my sugar high did give me one little bizarre inspiration for some of my manips.

Can anyone guess for which ones ? ^-^

I know something you don't know....

*Laughs manically before skipping away with to frolic in large fields of flowers???*

Audience: O_o

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Hi everyone! I made a little zutara manip and two semi-similar icons. It's not a lot but I thought I'd share it with you guys anyways. Enjoy! ^-^ 

So yesterday, my family and I were suppose to go to my older sister's little fashion show but some miscommunication led to some unpleasant consequences. It turns out my mom thought that the fashion show was suppose to be tomorrow so she went to her weekend classes. As a result when my sister called to confirm when she was gonna pick us up, my mom ended up missing. This is so sad since we were suppose to be celebrating my sister's birthday which was on Friday. Well, anyways my little sis and I ended up going while my mom, because she turned off her cellphone ended up missing. We tried to call her sooooo many times and yet all we ever got was her answering machine. Overall, I thought the show was alright. Kind of boring since I'm not into fashion *gasp from the audience*. Yeah, it's a such a surprise since everyone would think of all things I would be a girly girl. I guess in a way I am but just not when it comes to fashion shows. They are very boring and some of the models looked very inexperienced. Also there was this one arrogant blonde that came out thinking she was the greatest thing in the world and she practically was trying to absorb the attention like a sponge. She wasn't even that pretty but she acted like she was and man all I could think was have some dignity for crying out loud. There is a difference between being confident and acting like a whore. I'm sorry but she was pretty much the latter. My sister did alright though. She was one of the models and I loved the black dress she modeled. It was very elegant and yet not whory at all. Very sophisticated kind of like her. Anyways, yeah the whole show was a snooze but it was okay for something me and my younger sister had to go to.

Anywyas, after the show, my other sis and I got to our older sister's house. It was pretty nice. Not big but really cozy and it had two bedrooms and 2 1/2 baths. Pretty good for the price she was paying. We stayed there for God knows how long but after some more calling of our mom we all decided to go out for dinner. Her boyfriend treated us at Pasta Pomodoro. It was okay, although my dish could have been better. Ewwwwww...that Rigotani that I had was nasty and it tasted like there was a lot of bacon fat in it. *shudders* I hope not all the meals are like that. However, overall I had a pretty nice time. Oh at by the time we sat down for dinner we finally reached our mom so it was a nice conclusion to a semi-hectic evening, don't you think? :)

I can't believe it but I was watching "Twitches" last night on Disney Channel with my sister and it made me realize how much Zuko/Katara should be together. I mean there were so many parallels and reasons that I just can't begin to explain. *sighs* Let's just say that I've come to realize that if Zutara doesn't happen then the creators of "Avatar: The Last Airbender" must be the most clueless idiots in the world. *cough* Mike and Brian *cough*.

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